Feed Me Music!

-There's nuthin' left to do but escape; you've just gotta decompress.
-Gotta chill out--mellow & free; can't settle for anything less.

-Dim down the lights--turn your stereo loud.
-Crank up the tunes --hard, fierce & proud.

-All alone--just bang your head.
-Your frown fades away & you smile instead.

Dance like no one's watching--sing without a care.
Doesn't matter if they see you--fuck 'em--let 'em stare.
Shrieking like a banshee--lost in a blur of hair.
Doesn't matter if they see you--fuck 'em--let 'em stare!

-Close your eyes--really feel the bass thrumming.
-Bounce carefree--insistant, vibrant drumming.

-Let the music soothe you--as only music can.
-& If they don't get it--then they'll never understand.

-Really listen to the lyrics--let 'em speak to you.
-Never met a force in nature that's more honest, tried & true.

Dance like no one's watching--sing without a care.
Doesn't matter if they see you--fuck 'em--let 'em stare.
Shrieking like a banshee--lost in a blur of hair.
Doesn't matter if they see you--fuck 'em --let 'em stare!

-Get swept away--swing & sway to the beat.
-Revitalize my heart--never admit defeat!

-Shut out the whole damn world--turn that frown upside down.
-Spin 'round like a child --savoring every sound.

-Regardless of what you do--no matter what they say.
-The music is something they can never take away.

Dance like no one's watching--sing without a care.
Doesn't matter if they see you--fuck 'em--let 'em stare.
Shrieking like a banshee--lost in a blur of hair.
Doesn't matter if they see you--fuck 'em--let 'em stare!

-Find your own private anthem--unearth your own theme song.
-Life is hard --the world is wrong--let the music make you strong.

-Scream along--resist & find your voice!
-Fight back, rebel--& make your fuckin' choice!

-Let the music heal you--absorbed into the soul.
-& if it's too loud--then you're too goddamn old!

Dance like no one's watching--sing without a care.
Doesn't matter if they see you--fuck 'em--let 'em stare!
Shrieking like a banshee--lost in a blur of hair.
Doesn't matter if they see you--fuck 'em --let 'em stare!

-Feed me music like I'm dying.
-No more time for whining & crying!

-Larger than life--I can stand hard & tall.
-Can't knock me down--ain't never gonna fall!

-All I want is to be free!
-All I want is to be me!

-Dust my ass off--I'm a-okay!
-Won't stay down--fuck it--tomorrow's a whole new day!

Dance like no one's watching--sing without a care!
Doesn't matter if they see you--fuck 'em--let 'em stare!
Screaming like a banshee--lost in a blur of hair!
Doesn't matter if they see you--fuck 'em--let 'em stare!

Mischeivous Angel

-Angels perch upon my shoulders; one on either side.
-Conceal your heart's secrets; from yourself you cannot hide.

-One acts as my conscience; honest, wise, & true.
-The other causes mischief, as she is wont to do.

-I fight to hold my balance, between the dark & light.
- Eternally resisting the whispering of the night.

-The vast unknown, it beckons me, to spread my wings & fly.
-To shed my skin, begin anew, & let my old self die.

-Twisting thoughts & tangled hearts; they war within my head.
-The choice is never easy; I daydream instead.

-Always treading water; trying not to drown.
-Fight so hard to keep my smile; lost within a frown.

-Attempting to stay grounded--instead I'm chasing stars.
-Seeking out life's magic; slipping between the bars.

-& that mischievous angel--she whispers in my ear.
-Full of lies & secrets, that I don't need to hear.

-She fills my head with fantasies, 'til I want to saw my wrists.
-Then I breathe in the magick; there's more to life than this.

-Scattered stars shine down on me; bathe me in their light.
-Reminding me, I too can shine, if I don't lose my fight.

-So I just keep on moving, as the battle's not yet won.
-Whenever I consult the cards, I seem to draw the sun.

-The little stars believe in me, so all is not yet lost.
-Someday I will touch them; no matter what the cost.

-& that troublesome little angel, always whispering in my ear.
-Why is she the one that is easiest to hear?

Soul Music

-Roaring, whistling, all around; strain to hear that thrumming sound.
-Tune to a frequency no one else hears; hear the music in the air.
-Strumming, thrumming, sweep me away; to better lands & better days.
-No one's listening, no one sees; nature's symphony for insignificant me.

No more worries, no more pain; wash me clean in the pouring rain.
Heal me, cleanse me, no more pain; wash me clean in the pouring rain.

-Whispering secrets, teach me to fly; open & true--no time for lies.
-I too can be beautiful, I too can be free; revel in the night & dance under the trees.
-Strength & beauty all around; drinking in that thrumming sound.
-Music, music in the night; the masses tremble, hidden in fright.

No more worries, no more pain; wash me clean in the pouring rain.
Heal me, cleanse me, no more pain; wash me clean in the pouring rain.

-As unexpectedly as it came; so dies the music, along with the rain.
-The wind ceases to scream, the magick quells; pattering raindrops, & the power lulls.
-Drum beats fleeting, but they're still there; tilt your head & strain to hear.
-I won't fret, for it's not gone; listen hard, you'll hear the song.

No more worries, no more pain; wash me clean in the pouring rain.
Heal me, cleanse me, no more pain; my heart sings with the pouring rain.

Possessed by the Rain

I actually have 2 things I'm going to post today, the previous poem, & the following journal entry; both were written in the midst of the most incredible thunderstorm I've seen in years...This was Thursday night (7/9/08); I couldn't chance getting on the computer, & run the risk of being struck by lightning & blowing it up! That said...



"I am in my favorite part of the house as I write this, meaning of course, that I am out on the porch again. I am sitting here, in the midst of an absolutely incredible thunderstorm--the air is electric & I cannot bear to be caged indoors. The night beckons me. Wow! Purple lightning just sliced through the night like a glowing blade, & the sky is roaring, as though any minute, it will come crashing down on my head. The wind is whistling & the rain is drumming out it's own music.


Music--that's exactly what it is. Mother Natures' own brand of pulsing, throbbing, tribal music. My thoughts drift to my friend in California; I wish he could hear this. He also hears music in the rain....


It's like listening on a frequency that no one else can hear; the rest of the world seeks refuge indoors, & I breathe in the fresh air greedily, as though I've never gotten a taste before. Healing, cleansing, beautiful, & free--it smells like inner peace to me.


It's nights like this one that make you realize just how small you really are, in the grand scheme of it all. Makes me think, just how lucky I am--simply to be here to see it. Nothing can leave me gaping in awe like the wonders of Mother Nature.


The night sky is tinted with blues & purples; it looks like a water color painting, swished across the darkened clouds. & then it just lights up--the clouds glowing & shimmering as though back-lit....purple, azure, amber...This is so much more beautiful than any pre-manufactured holiday light show! Nothing man-made could even come close to what I'm witnessing overhead at this moment. The trees rustle & the leaves fall, dancing in the breeze. It makes me feel like dancing too.


In one of my very favorite books, "V for Vendetta", one of the charcters says "God is in the rain". Now I don't believe in God--not as most people do, but this phrase has stayed with me. I've never felt that spiritual, peaceful calm that some folks get from entering a church; I do, however, feel it right this minute. This is as close to feeling "God" as I've ever been...


A raging maelstrom, tearing through the night sky--it's as close to touching freedom as you're ever going to get....untamed, wild, beautiful freedom.


If only you could catch it in a jar, & save it for a day when you really need it, but that would defeat the purpose. So when it comes, you must stop, & take full advantage of it. Tonight, I feel as though nature has sent me a gift.


The trailer park seems so empty; there's no one outside except little old me. So I sit alone, & drink in the splendor all around me, basking in the hidden music of the night...."

Trees

~The calm, it washes over me; in that quiet place where I can fly free.
~Trees rustling their melancholy song; never forget to keep moving along.
~Don't falter, don't dawdle, run to the light; it's your life, it's worth the fight.
~Your strength & your peace are trapped within; selfish indulgence, embrace your sin.

Sentinal trees, looming above; what do they know of mortal love?
Seeking for answers, face tilted above; what do they know of mortal love?

~Unwaveringly strong, unbending & proud; the thoughts in my head are much too loud.
~I sit below, gazing up at the trees; their wisdom & beauty bring me to my knees.
~Their liberating song--how I wish to sing; my voice is muted, what pain it brings.
~Electric air, wind dancing with my hair; this renewed fire is too much to bear.

Sentinel trees, looming above; what do they know of mortal love?
Seeking my answers, face tilted above; what do they know of mortal love?

~The silence engulfs me, trying to mend; learn from the trees, don't give in & bend.
~Breathe it all in, can't give up & die; you'll never know unless you try.
~You are who you pretend to be; be sure that you choose carefully.
~Life is worth living--I should be dancing, but it won't wait for me; hesitate & you'll be left, waiting beneath the trees.

Sentinel trees, looming above; what do they know of mortal love?
Seeking my answers, face tilted above; what do they know of mortal love?

Lives On Different Frequencies...

~Little star, I can't catch you; why do I even try?
~Sometimes just in passing through, we brighten each other's lives.


~Moments shared & laughter traded; it makes it all worthwhile.
~So burned out & jaded; sometimes we forget to smile.


~We don't know where we're going, only where we've been.
~The repetition's trying; it's good to have a friend.


~The world, it beats down on me; my patience wearing thin.
~Can't be all the places you want to be; try not to lose your grin.



~I think it's all about finding that place where we belong; sometimes lives on different frequencies can still play the same song.
~Keeping grip so desperately, trying to hold on; remember lives on different frequencies can still play the same songs.


~People drift in on the wind; some pass through with the seasons.
~Some are there through thick & thin; some fade for their own reasons.


~Connecting with a lucky few; twin souls passing in the night.
~Without question they are there for you, through all the wrongs & rights.


~Stealing all the fun you can; take it day by day.
~It isn't chance or happenstance; some will even stay.


~Accepting us for who we are; not who we wish to be.
~Leaving impressions like a scar; ripples on the sea.



~I think it's all about finding that place where you belong; sometimes lives on different frequencies can still play the same song.
~Keeping grip so desperately, trying to hold on; remember sometimes different frequencies can still play the same songs.


~Without warning life's torrential rain--it sweeps us in new directions.
~Shining throughout the laughter & pain--graced by those connections.


~They say it's better to have loved & lost, than to have never felt at all.
~Even with all it may have cost, I'd rather take the fall.


~Through all of life's insanity, it's hard to find the time.
~So easy to be washed away; some get left behind.


~But some, they will come back to you; forget the future--live in the now.
~No regrets, treasure those precious few; fortunate to bear their mark--let them show you how.



~I think it's all about finding that place where you belong; sometimes lives on different frequencies can still play the same song.
~Keeping grip so desperately, trying to hold on; never forget that lives on different frequencies can still play the same songs.

For All the Broken Children

~Sit on the porch steps, watch the purple night fall; when will I understand it all?

~A strangling feeling creeping over me; that lost little girl just never sleeps.

~Somewhere between happiness & pain; lurking between the sunshine & rain.

~I want to scream, I want to feel; then it all becomes too real.

~A jagged blade, a biting kiss; close your eyes & feel this.

~Some call me crazy, but I'm not listening; even though the tears are glistening.

~You say I'm not damaged, tell me I'm not broken; softer words were never spoken.

~There must be a place for me to belong; always replaying the same tired song.

~Drowning in feeling, fly me away; if only to dance in another blue day.

~A jagged blade, a biting kiss; close your eyes & feel this.

~Crank up the music, those deep soulful dirges; wrap them around me & snuff out the urges.

~Protect my heart, hide behind words; set them free...soaring birds.

~Cast them out & let my face shine; light a fire that's only mine.

~Take in the night air, breathe it in deeply; find a way to scream discretely.

~A jagged blade, a biting kiss; close your eyes & feel this.